August 04, 2005 - 2:21 p.m.
I feel as though I've been run up and down every possible wall known to man.
From personal issues, to crap at work, now to top of this iceberg of a sundae... my little girl is starting Kindergarten in three weeks.
My social life has been non-existant. I had an old friend introduce me to a wonderful, smart, hard-working man a few weeks ago. I just broke it off with J two weeks ago. Very difficult, but as I stated in my previous entry I have to end this here, or it's just going to get worse. How do you go back to being friends??
I've never personally been in a situation like this, but I hope it eases up quickly.
Veronica's starting in the real school, as we call it. I'm trying like hell to get her transferred to the elementary by my mom's. (Which is two blocks east & across the street form her day care...) She's been there for two years now. She is stable and learning. Can you really ask for more from a day care center? I don't know. She is excited in the morning and they are just phenominal people. The school she's supposed to go to is in the opposite direction from my house & jobs & mom & daycare. If they turn down my transfer request I'm going to have to find a new after school facility...
I have instead decided to tell them I'm moving in with my mother. How bad is a lie when it really is for all the right reasons?
AS for my stress relief, I have a few different things I like to try...
1.) Riding my horse until he & I are in sync.
2.) Getting something that means something to me, not anyone else, tattooed on my body.
3.) Letting the clean clothes sit, rather than folding them right away... not doing the dishes for ONE night... not shaving my legs, instead, yesterday I curled up on the sofa with my daughter and a delicious bottle of merlot & watched movies allll night.
Take five minutes out of each day to watch clouds or listen to a bird sing... your sanity could very well rest on that simple little thing.
